Her by Cahya Firdaus

I was stunned. I rejoiced in my heart because she came back today after two days he didn't show up.

"Oh, it was you again". she turned to me and smiled. The most beautiful smile I have ever seen. "It is such a coincidence," she added

"Oh, yes. What a coincidence." If only you knew how much I struggled to make this 'coincidence' happen.

"So," he straightened his legs and put the bag on his lap. "how's going?" he asked.

If only, if I had the guts, I would have excitedly said ‘never be better till meet you today.’ But all that came out was “cool. Fine as usual.”

Passengers started to board. Forced us to shift postures (to be honest, we never really got out of our seats. We did that out of respect for the other passengers).

"tired isn't it?" She shocked me.

I was surprised She asked further. It's not in my life guide. Is this a new feature? Or did she improvise?

"Sorry?" I answer optional.

"Yeah, being an adult. We are required to work all day, no longer feel happy. We also have a monotonous life.” She plopped back into the chair. Her face was really tired.

"effeminate," I stopped for a moment "I miss my childhood."

"Right, right? Ah, I miss my childhood too. When all I can do is play as much as I want, go to school with my friends." She answered enthusiastically.

"I miss my naps," I answered spontaneously. Makes her confused for a moment.

"wait, what?" She asked for sure.

"Ah no, I just like it when I can sleep during the day, rest for a while, and finally fall asleep," I said hastily correcting my sentence so as not to make her misunderstand.

"Ah, there's some truth to that too. Now napping feels like a dream." Her laugh’s crunchy.

Before I could answer, She stood up.

"thank you. Good talk." The answer is short. I just nodded.

I looked away from the window. She took to the streets and disappeared into the alley. I sighed. Hoping for Her to turn to me and wave, But She didn't.

 

It's ridiculous. But let it be, this is a worthy sacrifice. I spent the rest of my paycheck that I usually use for savings. But it’s worth it, I bought the latest perfume and tidied my hair, and took off my glasses to make a difference.

I sat up straight. I put my briefcase downstairs because maybe I need some space for my improvisation. Come on, it feels like time is running slow.

Passengers passing by, ‘come on where are you, my heart is getting restless. I got it right, the hour is right, there's no way She's not here.

"execute me?" I turned.

"Oh, it's you. What happened with your look? Pfft." She laughed. Oh, mom. Even when She laughs She is very cute. “excuse me?” I was pointing at her.

 “Why are you laughing? “ pretty sure, I was so happy she noticed me.

“Sorry, sorry,” she wiped her eyes from tears.

“so, what’s up?” she asked me when she finally took a seat.

“no, I, I just try a new style. How do I look?” I tried to smile

She thought for a while and said “Nah, you did in a wrong way.”

“what?” I confused. Then she asked me. “did you free tomorrow? I will make over you.”

“sure, I am.” I have a lot of documents that I should finish before Monday. but it’s ok.

“see you soon.” She smiled and went outside. I look out the window and I was surprised. She stands and waves at me. I waved her back. Then she disappears.

 

Could hardly believe it. Finally, I hung out with her. I use my casual style. Not too formal but still cool. Once again, I was stunned by her. She wearing a knee-length skirt and short-sleeved shirt in a bright beige color.

“C’mon or the queue is getting busier.” She grabs my hand and runs. I followed her. I hope this day never ends.

We arrived at the salon. She wants me to cut my hair. I want to refuse because the salon is full of women. She didn’t take me to the barber because he knew this owner. The owner made me lay down and start to cut my hair. While she talking with the owner, I felt relaxed. When I am done, she said thanks to the owner and waved her hand. I look back and her sight is so sad when looking at us.

We continue to the clothes store, she chose a good brand but I refuse. I said it's too wasteful. I just need clothes that enjoy wearing. So he gave me a vest. She said it's Symboling of harmful. I'm glad to hear it.

In the end, we had dinner together. Again, she chose the place. How coincidence. We have the same flavor. We ate at a fast-food restaurant.

“sometimes I always want to eat all of the menus. I don’t even care if it's unhealthy.” She ate while she talked.

“well yeah,” I said. “I always think why the unhealthy things are delicious.” Then we laugh.

after we have done, both of us are going home.

 

I prepared myself. Now, I am ready. Today I will confess my feeling to her. I use my father's clothes. I showered three times to make sure that I am awesome. I bought a flower Then I wait for her at the same place earlier.

It's been a long, but she never come. I worried. Did something happen to her? I don’t want to think about it. But, when the last passenger is going in. she was nothing.

I was really sad. No, I'm just naïve. Hope I will meet her again. I decided to take a walk. I saw the minimarket and I felt thirsty. I went in and took a coffee cane and drank it in front of the market. While sitting and thinking about the document that I ignored, someone called me.

“excuse me, sir, can you share a seat?” I don’t care until I realized that it was her voice.

Both of us are shocked. Then she seat next to me.

“you look handsome. Did you go after a date?” she ask me. I am just silent. Then she realized that I was sad. “it’s not going well, isn’t it?”

“where have you been?” I ask her. She confused. “I was waiting for you for two hours.”

“oh, I am sorry, I take another way.” She said.

I don’t care. Now or never. “today, I want to say something.”

“oh, cool. What’s that?” she wondered.

“I…” I want to say it but my tongue was stuck. “yeah?” she ask me again

“actually I love-“ my mouth is clogged. Someone came to us. A handsome big guy.  Bringing some bread.

“Who’s this babe?” he asked her.

“oh, he was I told you yesterday.” She answered him.

“oh.” He ate his bread. “so it was you.” He pointed at me.

Then he asks her to hurry up because he is done. “Anyway,” she woke me up. “tell me about what you say tomorrow.”

Then she was waving to me while running. I feel really cold. I was freezing. I need a vest. Harmful things.

Now, I knew the meaning of the sight.